These past few weeks I had felt quite lost - as though I didn't know who I was anymore - but after a week of "soul searching," I feel like I have found myself again, and oh what a sweet joy it brings :)
There were a number of things that contributed to my difficulties, and I had struggled to understand exactly what those things were. I had spoken to President Wilkey about it, and he related a business analogy to me about having to find a new job, and he committed me to figure out how to fit into my "new job" this past week. Upon much prayer and pondering, I was able to see some significant issues and I discussed them with President Wilkey during our Zone Interviews day this past week. In short, it came down to my "demand" to work at such a fast pace, and be teaching all the time, greatly exceeded the "supply" of people to teach (I think in business terms a lot - they help me, haha). And the problem was that I wasn't used to having so much down time, or having to struggle so much to find people to teach, that I was being heavily negatively affected by it.
After discussing all of this with President Wilkey, I was able to dust myself off, pick myself up, and hit the ground running with a ton of reencouragement and a renewed drive to work my hardest :) I have committed myself to staying busy at all times and not just falling back on the easiest way out of things or allowing myself to get down about the work. Because of this, I have spent much of my free time organizing and planning places to go and people to find - and it has been exciting to go about this work now and to be myself again!
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And the results of all of this are great! Not only have I been much happier, but we got 2 new investigators yesterday whom we taught at a member's home and they were both so pleased with the comfort they felt from learning about the Plan of Salvation that they want to learn more and they are going to start reading the Book of Mormon! Plus, an investigator's planned baptism is still on for this Friday - this week sure is an exciting one!
I'm really grateful for President Wilkey's help this last week, and as he explained to me in the beginning of the week, "you are an 8-cylinder missionary, Elder Carr, but I can see that you are only firing on 3 cylinders right now. Let's see how we can get the other ones firing this week..." I am happy to say that I am once again firing on all cylinders! ;)
From Vermont with love!
Elder Dustin Carr